Today I am 36 weeks and 1 day! After all the scares I’ve had I’m so happy to have made it this far. I am still hospitalized, and we have set a date: July 1st!
I am a bit anxious but have tried to push my fears aside by leaning on prayer. That doesn’t mean that I haven’t had a few breakdowns because I have. Anneliese’s 3rd birthday should have been this Sunday, which is Father’s Day. Add pregnancy hormones on top of this and of course it’s that much harder. I also fear about this baby boy, but I pray he will get to celebrate many birthdays. Besides, worrying won’t change a thing.
Since I’m hospitalized I have been unable to prepare for baby. Nothing is ready for him. I guess he won’t care. I hope I have enough newborn clothes. I guess I better buy some diapers.
It’s scary thinking of how I will have a newborn again. I really haven’t held a baby for almost 3 years. This is what I wanted, but I’m nervous, but excited too.
14 days left!