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Guest blog post at Babies after 35

A huge thank you to Babies after 35 for inviting me to be a guest blogger on their site! Check out my story at:   A Rainbow After the Storm Advertisements

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Complications

As of yesterday I was 28 weeks.  Last week I had a “routine” OB appointment, and some of what my OB discussed caught me by surprise.  The visit prior, he had been talking of a c-section at 39 weeks (July … Continue reading

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16 weeks

It has been a long time since I have posted.  I am now 16 1/2 weeks pregnant.  I have found out through testing that we are having a baby boy! The preliminary blood tests (Progenity) all show that he is … Continue reading

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Grief changes with time, and yet it doesn’t

Grief changes with time, and yet, at the same time, it remains the same.  Losing a child doesn’t really get “better”. Holidays are particularly tough.  They are a time when family should be together, celebrating.  We expect of course, as … Continue reading

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October is approaching

October is just around the corner.  It is now fall, and like the weather, my moods have changed.  As fall approaches, the happiness of summer is replaced by the sadness of fall.  Fall is a stark reminder again of what … Continue reading

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To the client with the baby

To the client I saw today at work with the baby: Today you came into the office to see me, which was a feat in itself.  You loaded your three boys up in the car, stroller, baby paraphernalia and all, … Continue reading

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Where is my Time Lord?

For the past few years, my husband and I have discovered a new obsession.  Dr. Who. We started with the renewal of the series, with the 9th doctor, Christopher Eccleston.  Then came my all time favorite Scot, masquerading as a … Continue reading

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The day after

Well, I survived Christmas.  The word survival does not imply happiness, or contentedness.  Just survival.  On Christmas Eve, I visited Anneliese’s grave again, and left a few more Christmas things.  Someone had left a teddy bear the week before, and … Continue reading

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Reversal of fortunes…

Friday morning I went to Seattle Cancer Care Alliance for a third opinion.  Yes, I am on my third endocrinologist. Shockingly, this doctor told me what I wanted to hear, but was not expecting to hear.  That even though my … Continue reading

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Falling apart today

Grief, you suck.  I am not strong enough for this.  Today I am in a pit of despair, missing my Anneliese.  I know it is worse because it is October.  At this time last year, I would never have envisioned … Continue reading

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